Seriously?!

The call came much earlier today than I would've expected.

Ok, it's the NJ office, not Manhattan. That means it's Nurse L and not Dr. L. That's a good thing, right? I mean, if it's bad news he'd want to tell me himself, right?

I cautiously answered the phone, "Hello?"
"Hi, it's Nurse L," she said with her usual no-nonsense tone.
"And?" I asked without any of the normal pleasantries or small talk.
"The MRI DVD came in on Friday and they tried to read it today but the quality is just so bad they can't see anything."

What?

"That's what happens with these outside radiology places. Happens all the time. That's why we like to do everything here."

WHAT?

"So what does that mean?" I asked, knowing whatever it means I still won't have answers today.
"We need you to repeat the MRI in our office."

SERIOUSLY?!

"But this time we're going to concentrate on only the sacrum so we can get a better look. I'm so sorry I can't tell you anything else. I know this is so hard for you."

Lady, you have NO idea.

"When can I come in?" I asked, hoping she'd tell me RIGHT NOW. "I'm sending a note to the schedulers and we'll try to do it tomorrow or Wednesday."

Yeah, I'm not waiting until Wednesday.

"Ok. Can I just ask one more question? What was the exact SUV number of my PET scan? I know Dr. L said it was a two, but was it actually a two point something?" I waited as she opened my file on the computer. "Ummm...two point two. It's really low." Well, that's lower than 2.5, which is what I read to be borderline for inflammation or cancer. But, again, anything is possible. "So what could it be if it's not cancer?" I asked for the zillionth time. "I'm thinking it's a fracture," Nurse L said. "A fracture caused by what?" I asked, hoping Devine Intervention would bless her with the magical answer. "From radiation," she said without hesitation. If that's true, I can totally live with it. I just can't deal with cancer again.

So, again, we wait. This is a true test of my lack of patience and I'm really not enjoying it. Hoping I'll have the MRI tomorrow and answers no later than Wednesday...but I'm not holding my breath.